You have always been a misfit.
You have always seen things differently.
This ability showed you its true colors,
when you found your sport.
You understood why you exist.
Your otherwise gloomy days lit up and stayed lit.
You immediately saw the breeding ground of mediocrity that was your
nation's way of approaching your sport.
You had no choice but to go against the grain.
You traveled to the nation that has been dominating
the sport single-handedly.
You unlearned what needed to be.
Like a fierce never-extinguishing meteorite you re-entered your nation.
You penetrated the sport as an unstoppable force.
What followed next did not register to you.
For you were the thing that happened.
And it happened fast.
You hit your peak fairly easily.
You became the best athlete in your country in a matter of months.
You were featured in local newspapers.
People looked you up so much that Google learned
of your name and started suggesting it to others.
The high literally lasted for months.
Others came and shook hands with you during local competitions.
They said, "I just wanted to say hi to the best of my country".
Then something happened.
Then, came the slow and painful stagnation.
Then followed the unanticipated but unavoidable downfall.
You were surprised not about what came to be.
You were surprised for it came too soon.
"That's it?" you kept repeating internally.
You plummeted in the rankings.
What was once your "easy" started to call for considerable effort -
physical and mental.
To make matters worse the sport itself was suffering.
Clouds of corruption and politics that had plagued the sport in the past,
re-appeared like a daunting reminder of the true nature of associations and federations.
Your country has always suffered getting attention and recognition for the sport.
You had no choice but to let that chip away at your
already dropping enthusiasm for the sport.
Other "greener pastures" got the better of you.
You had no choice...
... but to quit.
Today the reality of your training is something like this ...
You have switched to another practice -
a sport which is not really a sport.
It is just a "filler", an easy way to fill the role of "athlete" without truly being one.
It is an excuse to not be serious.
It is an excuse to not be truthful to your core.
In that "sport"...
Your programs seem to be working, but something's amiss.
You seem to be making progress, but it either seems too easy
or just impossible to continue making.
Your faith in your coach is too blind,
for he is your best friend as well as a family friend.
Add to this the financial and emotional burden of
the day-to-day and to admit that
"Life is but a constant struggle against problems"
would be only to glimpse what you go through.
I will reveal something to you.
All these problems that have you lose your appetite for the feast
which is life, are not really problems.
The deeper problem is something else.
This problem has haunted you all your life.
Amidst the chaos of friends, family, relationships, and religion,
you did not think it was worth recognizing for what it is.
But it is what has surfaced as
"all things unfulfillment" and "that's it?" in all of your endeavors.
Read the words below carefully...
It is not that you do not know what to do.
It is not that you do not have "others" around you.
It is quite the opposite.
You know exactly what to do.
You do not just have "others" around you,
but each of them has "others" around them.
So you see this gives birth to the root of all
the problems in your life...
Because you are too busy doing things
and basking in the company of "others",
you have failed to realize what is it that you Want
Do you understand?
This single statement hides the glory
that drew you to your sport in the first place...
You
do not know
What
YOU
Want.
That is all.
Thank you.